You've been on my mind,

I grow fonder every day,

Lose myself in time,

Just thinking of your face,

God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go,

You're the only one that I want

someone like you

I know I talk a lot about music and recently it has been about my Arcade Fire obsession but now I must change the channel and express another music love. ADELE. She is by far way too talented to be from this world. Her current album 21 reaches into the depths of my soul and makes me feel the music rather than just hear it. Too much?? Seriously though, her bluesy voice with these songs just makes me want to grab a bag of chocolates and a box of kleenex and sit in my own love self pity. Her song Someone Like You brings this buried emotion out in me because I know it'll be my story down the line. I have this really good guy friend. We have insane chemistry and we just click. Both of us have gone back and forth with being in love and out of love with one another and we constantly get into fights for not paying enough attention to each other. Its a drama in my life that I always want gone but whenever I don't see him I feel somewhat empty. While listening to that song, listening to the regret and trying to fix it after he's moved on ... that will be me. Well maybe. This could just be my dramatic side coming out to play but I just love that song. I'm sure we will all relate to it at some point or another. Overall the entire album is riddled with slow and fast paced songs. I love Rumour Has It, its really catchy and in your face. I'll be Waiting is another favourite. I really just like love songs or relationship songs. I love songs bashing those stupid boys that didn't treat you right. The best part about Adele is that she does it without being Taylor Swift or Avril Lavigne. Don't get me wrong, I have huge respect for those artists but Adele is different. Her voice could out sing so many young artists and the lyrics are more mature. They seem to speak to adult emotion, rather than teeny bopper "first love" songs. She is on repeat and honest to God it is the best music to sing along to.

rainy season

It is upon us, rain and rain and rain. Endless misery making me want to curl up under my blankets and pretend that it isn't raining. I am currently trying to study. I am trying to focus but my mood is on the edge and the weather makes me want to cry. Now I know that people will ask, "wouldn't you be more upset if it was sunny and you had to study?" No actually I wouldn't. Unlike a lot of people I don't have the problem of forcing myself to study. When I know I have to do it, I just do it. I don't justify breaks after studying for a half an hour. Give me 4 hours and then break. I'd rather the sun shine into my bedroom while I am sitting at my desk. It would make me happy beyond belief and I wouldn't feel as if the world was ending with my bad mood. Weather effects everyone. I do not understand peoples love or want of rain. April showers bringing May flowers can go to hell and just give me some sunshine. Hopefully my mood can improve and I can focus.

Boys boys boys

Boys. We can't live with them, we can't live without 'em. Last summer I spent the months falling head over heels for a boy I a. didn't really know and b. had a girlfriend. Don't get me wrong, I know that having a girlfriend can mean nothing to a lot of guys these days, but I refuse to be that girl. Anyways, he goes to school in Montreal and I was wondering the other day if he is going to come back this summer? Will he be at the coffee bar around the corner that I frequent, especially when he's there? I haven't really thought about him all year until the other day. It got really warm in Toronto and it reminded me of the conversations we had about the lack of air conditioning in the coffee shop. I mean, it wasn't THAT hot but just the feeling of summer crept up on me and it made me think of last summer. You know what bothers me most? I actually had a feeling he was interested in me. I legitimately felt like we both had the same feelings towards each other and something might come of it. As the summer came to an end and he was getting closer to going back to school and back to Montreal, he made a point of telling me his last day. I don't mean like "oh yeah I leave in the last days of August". I mean like he told me the specific date (I think it was the 26th) more than once.

I think the saddest part is that on his last day at the coffee shop I waited outside with my dog when my mom went in to get coffee. Thinking back he probably took that as a "sorry not interested, don't care, have a nice life at school". Well, that could be an overreaction but still. So where do I stand? At the moment I really hope that he comes back this summer and I see him a lot. I also sort of creeped through friends that his girlfriend moved to Montreal with him over the year. Maybe it's serious? I really hope not. The guy is just genuinely nice and really cool. I'd like to get to know him better, maybe talk and enjoy one of his delicious lattes he makes.

Foot Wear

I set up a Twitter account a while ago. It sat unused for months maybe even an entire year. Back in the fall I decided that I would give it a go. I would tell the world all my personal feelings and thoughts. I would 'tweet' about buying stuff or what I overheard someone say. Basically, I love it. I have the app on my phone and whenever I find myself sitting with my phone, I immediately tweet something. I also find it fun to read other people's tweets and what they have to say. Actually now that I think about it, the best part is that immediate connection with celebrities. I mean, you don't get more personal with celebrities than that.

I think one of my favourite tweeters is Thomas Gibson who plays Aaron Hotchner in Criminal Minds. First off, I love that he tweets from set or posts pictures of the cast on set. Second (and my favourite part) is his shoe pictures. He always posts pictures of people's shoes and his own. I mean you could consider it weird but I'd consider it somewhat cool. I don't think we look at eachother's feet enough. What someone wears on their feet says a lot about them. Style, colour, shape, etc .. I really like red footwear. My Dad started it with his want for red shoes. I bought red Hunter boots over a year ago and I get non-stop compliments because most people have basic black or blue. Recently I bought a pair of Toms in red. Just as a side note, everyone should purchase a pair of Toms. They are the most comfy shoes and really fashionable in a simple way. Back to my point - I love how they stand out. People ask where I got them and how I found red. Even stores that sell the style of shoe ask how I got my hands on red ones. Overall, I really like how Thomas Gibson takes pictures of shoes and tweets it. It's just a neat idea and it shows something about people. I decided to take a page out of his books and do shoe pictures except I am going to feature my red "travelling Toms". Where have they been and what have they touched? It sounds weird but it'll be something fun.

Coffee, espresso, caffeine etc..

I love coffee. I love lattes, black coffee, the smell of freshly ground beans and the culture that follows it. I enjoy the atmosphere in cafes and the feelings they evoke in me. The relaxed vibe, the music, the muffins and cookies. I enjoy Starbucks as much as the next person but sometimes there is a true sense of culture and personalization in local shops that aren't main stream. Please go and enjoy a cuppa today and think about something new and distance. Enjoy other peoples presence and how those moments of bliss help you enjoy the rest of your day. Go with a friend and talk about boys and how much you dislike your job. Give yourself that time in the day to enjoy something small, yet pleasurable.

Happy drinking.

Update

I've had a busy week, or what I like to think of as a busy week. I should be cramming for my first exam tomorrow, yet find a million things to do. I never thought of myself as a procrastinator, but clearly I have made some sort of revelation. Just by me writing a post here I am yet again showing my procrastination skills. I wrote last week about Arcade Fire, and my friend and her stupid music blog and some other random stuff. Just an update on the Arcade Fire business, they melt my heart. I honestly could easily be in love with the entire band and nothing would stand in my way. I now own all Arcade Fire albums and have them on repeat. Funeral is a wicked album. The lyrics are profound and hit you, actually more like slap you with their vivid images and feelings. I was watching Arcade Fire's live webcast of them in Madison Square Garden the other day. Regine was singing lead vocals on Sprawl II and Win doing background. Regine has such a haunting voice, so simple, yet so full of emotion. At one point Win jumped down and ran over and kissed her cheek. The look of pure and simple happiness across her face was priceless. No one could replicate that moment in a movie or in any setting. It was so cute and full of love. My heart melted again. I have such a crush on Win Butler. Yes, I am that weirdo. To end this part of my post, I did in fact order an Arcade Fire tee off their merch site. Cool right?

My friend's music blog is another story, I went to find the link and it somehow is gone. I laughed to myself. I felt somewhat bad for making fun of it and maybe, somehow, she saw my post and was like "am I really that dumb?". I don't know but somewhere inside myself I wish it was still there so I could make fun of it. I am cynical and I can admit it openly.

All in all, I am done classes and I will probably find more time to post more often but I cannot promise a thing. I have exams and need to find myself a job. I will have an endless list starting soon and I have this dread and fear that I will somehow fail all my courses and be forced to take another year of courses.

Wish me luck for the next coming weeks and pulling shit outta a hat!