the way i see it

I know these people will probably never read my blog. They will never see my thoughts and will never know how I feel. Unless I make it public to all my friends this person/people will never see how I will feel about them. Somewhere inside this blog is nice. It is public, yet no one I am close with knows that it exists. I try not to put personal feelings online. I feel like they cause more turmoil than anything else. I know this because a few weeks ago I made a personal statement about manners. I didn't name a name but it was pretty clear if these people read it. They think they are so humble, so great, so flawless in their actions. They declare imperfections yet believe themselves perfect in their actions. The carelessness and the selfish behaviour put me over the edge. I couldn't handle the inner feelings that surged. I decided to take a step in the public direction and make a statement about how I felt. I'm not sure if this is believable but these people took offense. They actually read it and decided to write an email to my mom. MY MOM! My mom feels the same way, actually my entire family feels the same way. My grandpa agreed with me when my mom told him what I had said. These are people who have their heads so far up their own asses that they cannot realize the effects of their own actions, or lack there of. The email asked if I would take it down. I thought about this. I truly did. I thought about what I had said and how I didn't direct it personally at them but how much it clearly affected them. How they saw how it made them look back and possibly guilty about how they acted. I really did think about the whole thing a lot and decided that taking it down goes against how I feel about the situation. It would show remorse and sympathy for people who do not care about others. That choose to live their lives only thinking of themselves rather than the family they have around them. It would give into their stupidity and their carelessness. I couldn't do it. For my pride and my strength. I put it out there for people to read and react. This was the exact reaction I set out to grab. I wanted them to read it and think of themselves. I wanted to make my point about the rudeness and behaviour that they showed. The obvious brush off of family coming to visit from Europe. I wanted to prove a point. At this point in time they haven't made an attempt to talk to me or my family. I find it amusing, like a high school game between girls. That mean girling attitude where its only funny until its directed at you. I pack a mean punch. I am not stupid or dumb. I do not pretend that I don't see things for what they are or people for who they are. I call it as I see it. Maybe one day I will post my blog out there for my close family and friends to read it and maybe then I will see a real reaction.